Some of you may know that I'm both a dancer & a designer. And lately I've just had a moment of clarity & confidence in myself, showing my body as an artform.
I exercise 90-120 min on a daily basis...yoga, cardio, strength, balance, kenpo, & dancing...but for some reason I always seem to have this "baby fat" around my waist. No matter how much I diet or exercise it's there. At first I was worried that I wouldn't be accepted by the online communities in a way that I want to see myself, in a way that I want to portray myself as a nude artist. Some photos of mine are soft & lovable, while some of my nude photos are supposed to be smutty & extreme (which is also a goal of mine). I have my own personality that I can proudly say is unique, but unless you see me dancing or meet me in person, it's very hard to capture the essence of myself in photographs.
While my GF takes pics of me on a daily basis, I spend hours editing them in Photoshop CS4 (I'm a photoshop ninja hehe). At first I didn't like any of them cuz they make me look fat or wtvr. Basically the photos didn't look the same as my reflections in the mirror, or rather how I see myself, or how I feel about my own body. Walking by me in public will look different than a photo of me...at least that's how I feel about myself, don't we all?
So I've come to realize that my baby fat is just one of my cute & cuddly features that truly makes me look like "the boy next door" or wtbr. And I don't mind showing that part of myself anymore Some of my features are very feminine, while others are "boyish" and no matter how athletic or fit I feel inside, my body type is what it is. I noticed that some girls have baby fat around their bodies, but they still look so beautiful. So I've come to the conclusion that even though I have some extra healthy skin around my core region (waist & soft belly) and rock hard abs underneath, I may actually appear "nice" to the eyes of the audience...as an artist I mean, or naked boy. Photography is new to me, but interacting with people up close & personal is a different thing. So I realized that my body type isn't petite, I'm not skinny or anything, I'm not hairy, or made of flab. And I'm not ripped with muscular abs & pecks n stuff. Instead I have a beauty of my own...and it's all mine. I wanted to share that with the rest of the online community.
Luv me or hate me, I just want to entertain you. I just got a bunch of self-confidence in my life and I want to share it with all of you.